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Lessons from
my dogs:
Living
in the moment
By Kay Pfaltz
As I get older, I realize I am
losing certain memories and forgetting past experiences, my
life rolling up behind me like a carpet. But instead of fretting,
I’m deciding it’s a good thing. If there is no past
to remember, then one can only live in the present. Animals
do this without being reminded or without seventeen self-help
books instructing them how not to dwell on events that have
passed or worry about things that may never come to pass.
My dogs are all the self-help
books I ever need, and what they tell me is this: “There
is no past. There is no future. There is now.” I watch
them. They’re in no hurry; they throw themselves into
the task at hand with great joy and enthusiasm: walking, hunting,
chewing a bone. Even their sleep is earnest. I watch them make
the best of what the day brings. If no extra cookies fall from
the sky, they lie by the window looking out. If no walk is forthcoming,
they sleep and they dream, soft sunlight falling across their
backs. They rarely complain, and accept each offering as if
bestowed for the first time, their enthusiasm for the moment
they’re in genuine, and I do not find them seeking to
waste the present by looking beyond.
Their way of being is just that…being.
Not doing. They don’t try, they just are. Daily they try
to nudge me to do the same, yet never with force, just by example.
I think to the many times out on walks when one of them would
sniff for longer than I thought necessary, my mind on all the
work I had to finish back home, and I would tug at a leash or
call sharply, regretting it later. For who was I to judge the
importance of one sniff over another? I was as well-equipped
to assign the proper sniff length as an illiterate to decide
the English canon. Never do they try to prevent me from reading
my news in the paper…unless they’re hungry. And
were I to die then be miraculously offered one day or even one
hour of life back on earth, you would not find me typing before
my computer screen, but out where the gentle breeze touches
my face, filled with gratitude to be beside my dogs, watching
them, being with them in whatever form that took.
I now use the prolonged sniffing
stops to become quiet and behold the world around me, to look
not only to the beauty of freshly fallen snow or a trickling
stream, but also to something that is invisible to the eye,
and can only be felt—the pulse of life all around. In
Le Petit Prince Antoine de St-Exupéry wrote, “It
is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential
is invisible to the eye.”
While my mind still drifts when
walking, thinking often of work, I try gently to bring it back
to where we are and what lies unspoken: a short afternoon in
January darkened further by gray clouds above, yet beneath melting
snow damp mud hints at spring to come and the low, slanted light
speaks of long evenings ahead. Sometimes we sit listening in
a quiet woods surrounded by the whispered wisdom of ancient
trees, and I think of Yeats who said, “the practically
lost art of listening is the nearest of all arts to Eternity.”
Winter is a perfect time for looking
inward, becoming reflective—for in the darkness of silence
there are answers. My dogs speak to me silently in a language
inaudible to my ears, one I must listen for with my heart. There
is a saying, “The longest journey you will ever travel
is the journey from your head to your heart.” When I really
listen to my dogs, I hear what they are asking me to hear: the
rustle of birds in winter’s dried leaves; the whistled-snort
of a white-tailed deer mirroring the sharp cold air; bare branches
who dance with the wind, scraping against my window panes; or
the tat, tat, tat of the woodpecker in hushed stillness, pierced
now and again by the peal of a hawk. When I listen I hear the
voice of existence which knows no time or space, no past or
future—only now.
With my dogs as my teachers, I’m
trying to live no where else but in this moment. Sometimes I
even try sniffing the air. ~
Kay Pfaltz is author of LAUREN’S
STORY: AN AMERICAN DOG IN PARIS. www.kaypfaltz.com
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